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Living with a Violent Alcoholic

If the alcoholic you are living with is phsyically abusive, get out. Put the kids and your essential belongings in the car, and go. Violence always gets worse and you should not tolerate any adult being violent towards you or your children. Violence never subsides. Once you’re on the roller coaster of physical abuse, it is very tough to get off. Fortunately my husband was never physically violent towards me. My sister was towards me and my mother and that is when I drew the line with her – I would no longer visit her when she was drunk. However deciding not to visit is a lot easier than deciding to leave your home but you must. Saying that you are staying for your children’s sake is a load of rubbish. Watching a parent being beaten or living in fear of being beaten is a lot more damaging to a child than living in temporary accommodation with one loving parent. 

You may have come to believe there is nothing out there for you; that you are undesirable and unworthy, and deserving of the abuse. you may feel to blame for the person’s drinking – you are not. They are the adult and it is them who decides to put the bottle to their lips.

If the alcoholic raises his or her hand to you, they will do it again, and harder the next time. Don’t kid yourself. Forget your pride or forget believing in empty promises made when sober that it won’t happen again. GET OUT NOW. It will be hard at first but better in the long run.

Disappointment

The constant disappointments are hard when living with an alcoholic. You can never make plans because you don’t know if he will decide to drink.  Sometimes they invent a row  so that they have an excuse to opt out of the plans and drink instead.  One thing I did while I was dealing with active addiction was to always have a Plan B, plan C and sometimes even a plan D! That way if his drinking interfered with our plans, I always had a back up plan. His drinking made me very independent as I had my own circle of friends who I went out with. For years I lived with him but very rarely socialised with him. Why did I stay? We had great times together in the past and I knew that under the alcoholic mask lay the beautiful man I fell in love with. I tried to control him and his drinking but it didn’t work, as the saying goes – you can not control other people, places or things, you can only  control your own life. I’ve applied this to every situation in life I come up against and  it takes alot of burden from your shoulders when you stop trying to control things outside your control!

Set Goals & Feel Good Again

Decide to take steps to feel good again. Remember feeling good? Relaxed? Not on edge? What you’ll find fascinating,  is your reactions to verbal abuse and disapointment change. It’s as if, the more you learn and concentrate on becoming the person YOU want to be, the less upset you’ll be about impending  bad behaviour, and it gets easier and easier to blow off. I came to the conclusion that I could have a satisfactory life without my alcoholic partner meeting any of my expectations and I stopped feeling the need to treat him badly or like a child anymore. By developing yourself and growing  stronger on the inside you will be more ready to decide to stay with him/her and you will no longer feel miserable as you will be in charge of your own life. Sit down with a pen and paper and make a list of all the things you want to achieve in life (EVERYTHING no matter how strange or unlikely!) Read it aloud once in the morning and once before you go to sleep at night. Concentrate on it. Without any other effort you will find subtle changes happening in your life which lead you to fulfil your goals. It works – try it!